Ugh I'm too f-ing nice and I don't want to hurt his feelings but you're right about being blunt because I'm on the verge of just breaking it off because I can't deal with it but it's honestly his only fault because he's such a good partner to me.
So first of all you have to decide what you want and lock it in firmly.
You kind of have decided, but you don't want to lock it in, it seems.
Your decision is “no kids now, maybe later.” His decision, which contradicts, is “no kids ever.”
You have to decide if you're okay with no kids. He has decided not to be flexible on this and that's his right. You can also decide to not be flexible… which means you two are incompatible and should break up. You can't make him change his mind and to be honest counseling isn't going to change his mind either. At best you may be able to pull a “I'm willing to allow that in the future I may feel differently but at this time I do not expect I will change my mind.” Which really isn't any much different than what he's already saying.
Your other option is to stay with him until you decide you absolutely do want kids, revisit at the time, and break up then if and only if that pressure to have kids does actually come upon you. A “live while you can” kind of roll-the-dice approach. Save the problem for another day and enjoy the moment, because right now you don't want kids anyway. Not every relationship really has to be lifelong to be a benefit and a positive in your life.
So by delaying the decision, you get the current relationship, and in the future you either split, you convince him to have kids since enough time passed that he may have changed his mind, or you never get that urge after all and stay together kidless. 2/3 of those options are alright.
Weigh your pros and cons, decide what really matters to you, both for your present and your future, as they are two separate things, especially considering your “right now no, future maybe” approach; you want different things for your present and future, anyway.
So think about it all and make a decision that is in tune with what you want. The couples therapy may help you with doing that but it's still you that's got to do that.
Ugh I'm too f-ing nice and I don't want to hurt his feelings but you're right about being blunt because I'm on the verge of just breaking it off because I can't deal with it but it's honestly his only fault because he's such a good partner to me.
So first of all you have to decide what you want and lock it in firmly.
You kind of have decided, but you don't want to lock it in, it seems.
Your decision is “no kids now, maybe later.” His decision, which contradicts, is “no kids ever.”
You have to decide if you're okay with no kids. He has decided not to be flexible on this and that's his right. You can also decide to not be flexible… which means you two are incompatible and should break up. You can't make him change his mind and to be honest counseling isn't going to change his mind either. At best you may be able to pull a “I'm willing to allow that in the future I may feel differently but at this time I do not expect I will change my mind.” Which really isn't any much different than what he's already saying.
Your other option is to stay with him until you decide you absolutely do want kids, revisit at the time, and break up then if and only if that pressure to have kids does actually come upon you. A “live while you can” kind of roll-the-dice approach. Save the problem for another day and enjoy the moment, because right now you don't want kids anyway. Not every relationship really has to be lifelong to be a benefit and a positive in your life.
So by delaying the decision, you get the current relationship, and in the future you either split, you convince him to have kids since enough time passed that he may have changed his mind, or you never get that urge after all and stay together kidless. 2/3 of those options are alright.
Weigh your pros and cons, decide what really matters to you, both for your present and your future, as they are two separate things, especially considering your “right now no, future maybe” approach; you want different things for your present and future, anyway.
So think about it all and make a decision that is in tune with what you want. The couples therapy may help you with doing that but it's still you that's got to do that.