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Birth Date: 1990-05-02
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Date: October 11, 2022
Thank you for your reply and perspective! I wish I could say all of the particularities and convos of this situation, because for one: even though we’re both Christian. He also doesn’t know if he wants marriage or kids. There are parts of this story that I didn’t mention, but overall his behaviours have been giving me the green light for sex, but then his words are saying he wants to wait until marriage but he just stuck his fingers up my vagina and licked my boobs, lmao. Like it doesn’t make sense, and it’s confusing and sends hella mixed messages. Being a Christian does not always = Virgin, AND wanting marriage.
Anything sexual-related was initiated by him. And then when I finally give the same energy back, he hits me with “I’m saving for marriage”. This man offered to get hotels with me, wanted to shower with me, was all over me after every date, he initiated touching my private parts. Christian or not, all of these things send a particular message. This is what is women are taught, not to be a tease like this towards guys if you don’t plan to do anything. It’s one thing to tease and BOTH parties know and consent to just tease each-other, but I wasn’t aware of his intentions because for almost 4 weeks he was behaving sexually, touching sexually, and flirting sexually towards me (on text, call, FaceTime, and in person. It was a consistent stream of flirting and communication about random things) Anybody in my shoes reading our texts and hearing him in person would have no doubt that he’s about that sex life, lmao. So I naively never thought to downright ask him straight up. I thought I was reading the signs correctly
He doesn’t care that I’m not a virgin, that’s not an issue here. And I don’t care that he is one. I have valid reasons for not being sure about marriage, and so does he. So by the bible, we’re both not “Pure Christians” in our own ways anyways
What I’m frustrated about is why did he keep initiating certain behaviours when he knew that ultimately he was planning to live his life celibate until marriage. It feels deceiving, if I was him I wouldn’t even be touching and feeling him up AT ALL if I knew I didn’t want to have sex. I wouldn’t ask him to get a hotel with me and shower naked together if I didn’t want to do anything sexual. There’s also a level of vulnerability that I let him experience of me, and it didn’t feel mutual. I felt more exposed than him, even though I wasn’t initiating these advances.
Sex is really NOT everything in a relationship. But as a woman staying celibate for this amount of time and then finally finding somebody who I connect with on (almost) all levels, this all feels very overwhelming and confusing to me.
It’s one thing if he told me this ahead of time, then I would of had the choice to still let us have intimate moments, or not. But I feel led on because I was unaware and there is an unequal aspect to this, where he’s able to get pleasure through me without technically having sex with me….Claiming he’s waiting until marriage, but initiating all sexual behaviours so far, him getting off on grinding with me, asking me what my turns in are (then acting on them), making out for long periods of time, etc. all to not actually have sex, Its confusing as hell
So I’ll see how our conversation goes tomorrow. Maybe he can explain his rationale to me
People that are constantly posting pictures like that do it for their ego. Let’s not lie to ourselves.